Yellow Light means Go Faster?

I was driving the other night down a main road in Jackson and I came to a stop light, it was turning yellow as I approached it...and so, I decided to slow down and eventually came to a gradual stop. Just in time for the light to turn green! Such a good driver I am!! Haha...I got ya! I bet you thought that this was going to be an embarrassing tale of how I ran a red light.

Well, you're sadly mistaken...(I would never do that! ;))

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This is a tale of how the stop light in my life

has no lights at all.

It's dark.

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Green Light! Yellow Light! Red Light! Go! Yield! Stop!

All very clear commands...if not followed correctly,

could result in very bad things.

If only the journey of life was that clear...

Have you ever looked at your life and thought,

"What on earth am I supposed to do next?!"

You could continue going through the yellow light, or you could stop and wait for it to turn green again.

You could even turn right and change your course to avoid a long wait.

No matter what you do, there are consequences...

You can't make a decision.

You don't see the green light or the red light...

There's NO light at all!

It's not a fun place to be. It's honestly very scary. You're constantly wondering if you're making the right decisions and wondering what you should/shouldn't do. Life seems so daunting when you're sitting in the dark.

Darkness itself is daunting.

I have always been terrified of the dark. We used to have chickens and at night we would have to close up their pen in the barn. It was usually dark by the time I would lock up and I would ask my Mom to stand on the porch and watch me as I ran out to shut their gate. I was content running into the darkness if I knew she was standing on the deck watching me. What was she supposed to do on the deck if the "Boogie Man" jumped out at me? I'm not sure...but, it helped knowing she was there. I think this analogy could apply to how I've been viewing God lately.

I know He's there, watching me,

protecting me,

looking out for me...but, it's dark.

Very dark. Very silent.

I can't see where I'm going and I don't really know what I'm going to encounter as I head out into the night.

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It is in our darkest moment that we must focus to see the light - Aristotle

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Begging God for answers and direction to know what to do next and there's a dark silence...no lights are blinking.

No "Go" and no "Stop"...nothing.

I only have one option...Wait for a light to come on.

It's very easy to be content and happy in the light. You can see everything clearly and it all seems to make sense.

Then, when you're at a place where there is no light,

that's when you realize how much you take the light for granted. Yes, it is said that sin is likened to darkness...

I agree, I also think suffering and grief go hand in hand with that analogy to some extent. It's hard to stay in the dark for a long time, your eyes are straining to find the light, you never exactly know what surrounds you and what you might encounter along your journey.

Yet, God can use the darkness can mold a person if they're willing. Pushing them to be braver, stronger and forcing them to lean on God for direction. He can turn your confusion, heartache, suffering and pain into something that can turn YOU into a light that can shine for Him...to some other person that is struggling with the same thing that you were.

It's a tough place to be, it's not fun and it's certainly not easy. Don't rush God...trust His timing. It's easy to say, I know, and so much harder to live out.

Wait, because if you continue on, you might regret running that red light.

So, I'm just waiting...in the dark, trusting in God,

knowing that He holds Tomorrow even when I don't know where my next step will lead.

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What's your stop light look like?

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(Inspired by C.S. Lewis and my own rambling thoughts)